Well I was going through my computer and ran across a bunch of poems I had written. Some of them I didn’t finish, and some weren’t so good. But I found a few I still liked and this is one of them.
I wrote this poem after I had broken up with Rachel, and before we had gotten back together. And I was watching how she lived her life, and she was always discouraged and never believed in herself. And having been at that point in my life before, I wrote my thoughts down and tried to portray a person who for one reason or another never decides to take hold of their life and make it their own:
It’s Yesterday Today
Watching time fall off the clock
Turning hours into minutes.
Years now I’ve spent in yesterday
Trying to decide if I regret it.
How will the future ever come,
If this moment’s in the past?
Yesterday’s consumed today,
And tomorrow’s next to last.
I’d rather think about the mistakes I’ve made
Than about the mistakes I’ll make.
I don’t want to be responsible,
For the choices that I make.
I’ll throw the dice and turn away,
Let the chips fall as they may.
Somehow I’ll find a way to deal with,
Whatever comes my way.
Today’s my second chance,
To redeem what’s gone awry.
But what if I just let it go
And cast it all aside.
It takes no pride to admit mistakes,
And I’ve got pride to lose.
The present cannot change the past,
But the future’s mine to choose.
I’d take control, I’d turn the tides,
I’m not worried about the fall.
My biggest fear in all my life,
Is I’m not good enough at all.
I’ll hide in the shadows of what could have been,
Because it’s harder to be seen.
Away from the eyes, the tears and the lies,
Away from all but me.
November 30th, -0001 at 12:00 am
This poem depicts how I actually used to be. I changed because of you, Matthew. You helped me see myself. But truly, this poem speaks of how I used to be. Now, I’m not much like that anymore! Thank you, sweetie! 🙂
November 30th, -0001 at 12:00 am
Well you’re sure welcome! But I think your changing had more to do with you than me. I just try to be positive about most things.
I think everybody’s been like this poem at one point or another. Like I said. I was too. And when you’re like that, you always know that today could be day one of taking charge of your own life. Some people just are too afraid to take that first step, because their afraid of what might happen if they fail again.
Rush Limbaugh, one of the most respected radio personalities in America today and a self made multi-millionare said that he’s been fired nine times in his career. But because he knew he was good, and wasn’t afraid of failing, he became what he is today.
November 30th, -0001 at 12:00 am
great poem matt, poetry is one on my favorite pastimes i enjoy writing it ive got tons on my laptop that ive written…